This is me catching up to the time I haven’t wrote to you my love.

I’m over at Kuwait and looking back at all the times we’ve fought…. We’re still fighting and my heart aches.

So many failures… So many difficult times… There are lot of times that I was so hurt, that I just wanted to just break down…

But here I am… through it all.

Heck… The fight with you is part of the pain. There has been lot of hard things recently…. From work… to my own personal fears… to my family…. But mostly stemming from my own weakness that I feel at times.

I want to be strong. I want to stop failing. I want to win for once…. But it seems like it’s unreachable. It’s been years… yet same thing happens…

I’m in an endless cycle and it seems like I’m reaching the level of insanity….

However, because I have you. Because you are there to support me and love me. I will now put in the most effort I have in anything in my life. Watch me love…. I will show you who I can be… I’ll show you the best of me.