Dear you…

Today was supposed to be a rest day. But if I’m being honest, it didn’t feel very restful…. AT ALL!

I was awful to you this morning. And during the waterfall hike… I wasn’t really with you. Not fully. I was in my own head, and maybe in my own mess. But still, I felt the space between us, and it hurt. I don’t want that space. I don’t want that kind of day. But it happened… I LOVE YOU…

The car ride was tense. Quiet in the wrong way. Not peaceful… It was just distant. Then we got to the Korean BBQ place, and slowly, things started to shift. We laughed a little. Talked a little. Found each other again, even if just barely. Even if the BBQ SUCKED.

But that’s not the way I want to do things with you. I don’t want our good moments to come only after the damage. I want to be better. I want to choose you with kindness, the first time around and not just after we stumble.

I’m sorry for how today went. And more than that….I wish I could have made it easier for you.

v/r,
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