Today was the end of my training. After all the long, exhausting days under the sun and barely holding it together, it’s finally done. I was able to came home early today, not just because I could… but because I wanted to be with you. It was awkward texting throughout the day, but I think we were feeling better…. and also… I wanted to be more present. To be near you. To make time for us.

When I got home… we talked… We really talked… it may not have been the same way we talk like usual… but it was a talk.. I’d be honest… It wasn’t perfect nor did it felt like we were quite in sync. Honestly… it felt like we were standing on two different sides, trying to explain what the world looked like from where we stood. But even through that, I didn’t lose my temper. I didn’t raise my voice. I didn’t say anything cruel or cutting… at least I hope I didn’t. And you didn’t either.

We were just… honest. And even though we weren’t always on the same page, we stayed in it. Together. Personally… I think that’s something. It felt like a small win. And I’ll take that. Because it means we’re learning.

Today, I think we got a little bit closer. a little bit better. and I feel like that we are moving forward, even if it’s slow and messy and hard…

I love you…. very much. Thank you for staying. Thank you for trying.

I’m here. Still here. Always.

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