I woke up tired today — not just physically, but the kind of tired that sits deep in your chest. I also didn’t have enough sleep…. so I felt like I wanted to faint.

Today, I went to training, went through the motions, trying to focus, trying to keep it together. Through it all, I kept thinking about us, thinking about how I just want to make things better. and I really do……..

But somehow, it kept getting worse. We fought again. And now I’m here, writing, because I don’t know what else to do with all of this. I’m exhausted. I’m sick of fighting. I’m sick of feeling like no matter how much I try, we end up in the same place — hurt, confused, distant.

Honestly… All I want is peace with you. I want comfort. I want to be each other’s safe place. But right now, it doesn’t feel that way, and that breaks my heart.

V/r,
I