Today was exhausting…. Truly..

I want to say, I’m pretty much broken. A broken person. I can’t function correctly. At work, I am a sad zombie. I feel like passing out, but I can’t. I drank a coffee and a redbull. But still feel dead. Actually, feel even sicker.

I hope you are doing well. I really do. I feel guilty saying you shouldn’t sleep like me. I feel sick to my stomach thinking I’ve said such awful things…

I do not want to go out today. I have stuff piled up to do. Things are piling and piling and I’m overwhelmed. But who cares? Honestly… I should care… I should care about myself… Cause that’s how I feel…. Like no one cares…

but I’m pretty sure you do…. I believe it. I want to believe it… cause it’s true. I just know… Even if my whole body is telling me no, it’s true..

You know what… That’s how I always lived. Like no one cared about me… so I took care of myself… Until I met you… so thank you….

I haven’t been taking care of myself lately. I feel like I been torn apart. So maybe it’s time for me to change that…

There are so many things I’d like to work on…. I’d like to be more resilient. More understanding. More secure….

It’s something that I aspire to be… So that I can be better…..

There are so many things I’d like to be….

But it feels like I can’t be…

v/r

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