It seems like I can come off very heavy emotionally and may feel like I unnecessarily put guilt on other people without meaning to. I also need to be aware of how other people are feeling and not be stuck in my own emotions.

Saying things like, I was overwhelmed, but wanted to make time for you might be bad, as this may make her feel responsible and guilty. So I shouldn’t do that. My intent is to make sure she feels good and I ask for support. I can say things like, I’ve been overwhelmed recently due to so many stress factors and I’d love to ask for your support. I need to recharge myself and I need to find a better balance with everything going on in my life.

It seems like emotions are running out of control right now because of so much stress. I should pause and think to myself a little bit as I write this right now.

It feels like I feel emotionally guilty and overwhelmed right now because of yesterday. Let’s think about this…. I feel guilty because I didn’t meet my partner’s expectations for communications yesterday. I also felt like I wasn’t enough, and because of this, I felt like being tired and stressed didn’t matter because I was pressured to be more available now. This is also the fear of not being the best partner I can be, which I want to be.

I feel like this because I think in my head that my exhaustion can’t be felt and my effort isn’t being recognized by my partner, so I have to perform. It’s the fear of being selfish and fear of disappointing my partner who I love so much. Maybe what I’m missing is a recognition that I’m doing good as a parter, that I’m doing what I can to support.

I think boundaries are natural because we have limits. I get emotionally overloaded at times and it’s not healthy and this cause me to have bad actions or behaviors. I would love nothing more than to work on this so that it doesn’t happen.