Waking up without you is truly lonely… I wish you were here…

Getting a text from you in the morning makes me a little bit happier tho…

Today, I worked on the blog design. I worked on it quite a bit because I wanted to get the design down completely. I didn’t want to ever touch the design again, maybe a minor changes here and there, but nothing big. I think I’m satisfied after hours of work…

I also went for a run. 8.5 miles. I thought about us… what makes me happy and what doesn’t… It seems there are lot of stuff I need to vocalize better and bring up, because there has been lot of stuff that’s been pushed down and it’s not good for the relationship. I am sure you have a lot of stuff that has been pushed down and we need to work together to resurface those issues together..

Realizing how awful pushing down those emotions can be and what it can do to us, I felt a little anxious. It seems I may be a bit afraid for our future. I don’t want anything bad hanging over us and I want us to have a very pure and clean relationship…. But it’s going to require a lot of work… I wonder how I can do this for us… more thinking is required for this it seems…

I was pretty tired after the run, but I got my energy back after a quick nap and eating your delicious lasagna! Even though I felt weary, I still tried to press on, but it was sooo difficult to focus… I decided to do the laundry and clean the house a bit instead. It clears up my head a bit when I clean.

Day is lonely without you…. I don’t want to imagine a day without you… But I have to work hard to make sure I keep a safe environment for us… I know you are doing a lot as well, this is just me wanting to do more…

I love you!

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