Dear you,

We were able to have a little success today….

Our day started off very nice, where we both woke up, worked out, and went to the new diner to have one of the best breakfast in a while. Wilson’s diner, which is basically a trailer styled diner with old cash register.

Afterwards, we went hiking at prospect hill, where everything was quiet. From hanging out at the playground at the entrance, to hiking up and down the stairs to the view. From laughing at kids following us who are lost to talking to a strange man who was a bit stereotypical towards us.

On the way down as we joked around, the situation got heated. It was very difficult to work with and I felt like the situation needed to be resolved. I know you were upset, but you didn’t want to be. After talking and poking around, we figured out it was just a feeling of confusion, guilt, upset, and love. I wanted to understand it more, but at the same time, I didn’t want to push it and fix it right away, as that may put more pressure on you and make the situation worse if it doesn’t get better and makes me feel ashamed of being unable to fix it. However, I wanted to let you know, I understand you. I understand me. I understand us. But I am not going to rush to fix a problem that I don’t have a solution for, but would love nothing more than to fix it together and that we can take today, tomorrow, and lifetime to fix it and there will be no worries. I think that kind of approach works for us.

I considered today a win, where we put bad feelings behind us, but not the problem. We are both actively working to make it easier for the future us to bring up the problem and dig into the roots. I believe in us and I believe we can be better.

After the situation got better, we set up our new 20g fish tank, went shopping to meal prep for next week, and had more intimate discussions while watching couple’s therapy. I know there are still many more things we should work on, like planning and building our calendar together and talking about what hurt us in the past that is affecting us today…. We will…. we will…

v/r

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